GenyHuang

I wrote the diary the late night in shengtaosha teahouse:

   What made me always wan't to cry?

   Life is just a joke to me, so i treat my life as only a joke too.

   Dreams, sadness, some lies and secrets in my mind.

   I do only myself on today, as my like.

   Missing my friends and relatives~

   Hating someone, and also be angry with someone~

   So many complicated emotions~~~

   Nearly be busy in every minute. But i don’t know what I am busy with.

   Seen the real society through. Which are ugly or pathetic~~~

My final goal is just to live a happy and peaceful life together with my parents.

What's my greatest wish~

   I love them so much, and owe them more.

Missing them~~~

   Dreaming a perfect love. But I never got it.

   Be not sure if i would get one in future.

   Expect a hero's appearance and protecting me.

   But that's just a dream. Will it come true? I have no idea~

   I've been so lost that I could not see my way.

   How will it be of my future? I have no idea~

   I'm just insisting on and on. Keeping the real life~

   Now I don’t care so much whether I am quite honest or not.

   But I am hard to be a good girl. I am trying to do my best to be. And I hope so~

   Had ever been hurt by something and someone.

   Which or whom have not been so important to me now.

   Trying to forget the unpleased and sad things.

   To live a whole new life as a whole new myself.

   Be not so happy and comfortable as before.

   For I am so busy and tired everyday.

   Just bear it~

   It's so sad after the busy and tired life.

   Best wishes for me and good luck.

   I am sure the god won’t treat me so bad.

   Must be happy every day. Keep a good mood and a warm heart.

   Will be young forever~

   Look upon everything as a little case.

   I will be all right :)

   Have courage!